The sudden split of John Cena and Nikki Bella after the two had a very public engagement is still a burning topic in the minds of. The two were slated to be married in May of last year but decided to call off the engagement and both are now in brand new relationships.

Nikki Bella revealed on the latest episode of The Bellas Podcast, following a fan’s Q&A question, that she will always have unconditional love for John Cena and reveals that there’s a lot she cannot go into due to a non-disclosure agreement that she signed because of John’s private lifestyle.

The one thing that I can't tell you from my point of view and my emotions and my perspective, you know, I just towards the end started to become a miserable person. I was very, very unhappy,” she says. “I would ask myself questions every day. 'Why am I feeling this way? I have not only this beautiful, successful man, who has a heart of gold, who's an amazing person. I live in these gorgeous homes. I have these gorgeous things.' And I would understand that when you would look at my life, it was like, how was this girl becoming so unhappy? And honestly, it's still questions I asked myself today. Like, I'm still trying to get over my break-up.”

“I do feel like John is a soulmate of mine. [Brie Bella is] one. I do feel like Artem is one. I really feel a soulmate connection with [Artem] and with John. And we both have said this. I have unconditional love for him,” she continues. “We were such a great couple, but our lives didn't work. And that's what I think-- sometimes people, when they get into marriage, they don't realize that marriage is beyond just loving someone. You are joining a life together. It's a partnership. It's so many things that those are things, unfortunately, you have to look at and I look at my marriage just being different than what John and I were gonna have.

Nikki would reiterate that she still has her tough days, but ultimately, she stands firm in her decision, because she's happier today than she was a year ago.

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