The UFC star was accused of raping two women in September of 2018 and contemplated suicide during the course of his legal battle.
“I even doubted if I’d be alive, because I wanted to kill myself,” Alhassan said during a media scrum (via Damon Martin of MMA Fighting). “Cause people don’t see what happens in the background. A lot of people who doubt you, or say bad stuff about you when they don’t know the truth, because this is the type of harassment you don’t wish on anybody. I sat down and thought about it. I have two kids. I have a girl and I have a boy. What would happen to them if I took myself out? Because of some evil people. But like I said I have proved my innocence and I proved that they will never amount to anything and God will always figure out and show the truth. But I learned so much from it.”
Alhassan was found not guilty of the charges levied against him this past March and this will be Alhassan’s first fight since then.
While Alhassan admits that his life has returned to a form of normalcy, one thing the fighter hopes is that his accusers get what they deserve.
“I’m a good person – I’d never do what they said I did,” Alhassan said. “It got to a point where I ask myself why is God letting evil people like that live? Because if I didn’t do something like that to you, why? You would think the person would realize and come and be like, ‘Hey, what I’m doing to this person is wrong, he didn’t do what I said he did, I did a mistake.’ but no, they were not coming out. I thought about revenge. If I tell you I didn’t, I’m lying. I thought about all the revenge in this world I can to take revenge. Because they really got to feel the pain that they put me through. They are out there stripping, not caring what they are doing to me. Having life, putting stuff on social media. They’re happy, throwing alcohol while I’m home crying everyday, can’t even take care of my kids. I have so much anger. I know it’s behind me now, but I really hope God takes some huge revenge on these girls. I really hope they get what they deserve.”
UFC Fight Night: Kattar vs. Ige takes place on Wednesday, July 15 from Fight Island in Yas Island, Abu Dhabi with Calvin Kattar and Dan Ige headlining. Fightful is providing live coverage of the event, which airs live on ESPN.